At that time there were a few books out on the subject. Now there is much more information, especially on the Internet. However, everybody’s experience is different and despite the desire many people have to experience Kundalini, I don’t recommend trying to make it start by yourself. It is an entirely spontaneous energetic movement that begins when the consciousness is ready. Mostly in the early days, in Western culture, there was no model for this other than the mystics, or ravings from certain saints, and it wasn’t widely published. If you were having an intensely personal mystical experience you went to a monastery or a nunnery. This was the stuff they sent people to asylums for. Yes, this was definitely out of the norm, the body spontaneously jerking, uncontrollably. It was like having a seizure, but not. I was completely aware and coherent except that I was laughing a lot. To me this experience came with great joy, it was ecstatic. It did not stop for a whole week, day and night and it took all my concentration and focus just to pay attention to what was going on. Strange things were going on in the body, the energy moved from one area to another, the body jerking rhythmically, until It was ready to move on to another area. After intense jerking there would be this delicious feeling of peace and warmth, extraordinary. Once the movement started in the heart area, it moved down to the first energy center, the root chakra, located at the connection between the legs and the torso, it began to circle in a clockwise direction, I felt the same circling energy move up my entire body. It was hypnotic, not at all frightening yet I was awestruck. I was not in control of my body at all; I was not doing this voluntarily. It was happening magically, independently of my volition. The energy was not subtle it was stronger than anything I have ever experienced in the body. Gradually, it moved on to the second energy center located between the hip bones, the Energy moved round and round, forceful yet gentle, then it went up to my solar plexus and the middle jerked, like I was being pulled directly up by a very strong string. I felt like a marionette, and God/ Shakti was the controlling force. I felt that somehow, I was privy to a secret, a secret that was available to everyone and anyone, but something people didn’t ask for. My feet were cramping from the enormous energy moving upwards and I learned I could get relief from the cramps by sticking my big toes into the sore spots and massaging the arches of my feet. The energy continued to move up, it was slow, it was taking its time. I knew that the Energy was moving towards the head, but how long this process would last, I had no idea. In the end it turned out to be very efficient.
The entire process took a week to reach to crown chakra. For seven days I did not go out of my apartment. Mainly I stayed in bed; although I was allowed to carefully walk to the bathroom. I ate one meal a day while the energy maintained some sort of suspended animation. Once I finished the meal, and got back to bed it resumed moving immediately.
It would always begin the same way, starting at the feet and moving upwards. Every day it went a little further. It worked on the energy centers in sequence, staying at a particular energy center until all the blocks were clear. When It was satisfied, it moved on, always up. My friends called me, I told them what was going on, they were supportive but a little in disbelief. Who could blame them? I had never actually met anyone who was going through an experience like this or anywhere near this. This was exquisite, this was above and beyond personal power or will, it was within me, but ‘I’ wasn’t doing it. It, the Kundalini was doing it by itself. The days went by; on the fourth day it began to move in the heart chakra again. By now I was familiar with the process and lay feeling the incredible feeling of this snakelike, delicious energy moving through the body, stopping at each chakra and swirling around and around, moving on when the blocks were clear. The whole process was going a little faster. My head began to jerk rhythmically on the pillow. I was grateful I wasn’t lying on the floor. I had many thoughts go by during this process about my life and the story of it and how all of that didn’t mean much in the light of this experience. I didn’t belong to myself in the way I thought I did. I wasn’t a person in the sense that most people thought of themselves as people, in bodies, living a life that was based in survival, completely involved in the personal drama of their lives. Something else was in charge, something else was moving and living through me, and I was humbled, and in deep, profound gratitude. Sometimes I would shift to my side and then the energy would jerk through my body rapidly, so rapidly I could not help but dissolve in a fit of giggles. I was jerking like a fish out of water This was so crazy, so good and so wild. I felt euphoric, like I was in love for the first time. It was and is Love, in the most real and profound sense of the word. This is want we are, we are this Presence and this Presence is Love, and I was having a personal experience of it in my body. I was getting a taste. To be continued...
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