Chapter 7 Kundalini Rising ~ Ongoing

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The way to personal peace, inner peace, is complete surrender. Saying "I don’t know what anything is for. I am not happy and so I must have made a decision by 'myself'. Dear Holy Spirit of Love, I want to be happy, please make the decision for Love for me."

But, humor me for a second. Try it for yourself, now. Release your expectations, your demands of how you want things to be, or how you judge them to be. The ask yourself "How do I feel? Empty, free, better, more irritated? If irritated, try again. And again, and again, and again. Because irritation is a good sign that you are still holding on, are still attached.

One of the greatest works on a personal account of non-duality, if there could even be such a thing, because the previous statement would be a contradiction in terms, is Perfect, Brilliant, Stillness by David Carse. He presents with the greatest honesty and raw clarity his version of the non-dual state. It is a possibility that a seeker would find this as intoxicating as a 14 year old boy might find Playboy magazine. I am one of those, because Life as we know it is almost unacceptable unless it is seen from the viewpoint that there is no separation and that all that is occurring and experienced is Oneness. That the personal self does not exist. This truth is a bone of contention between me and the man I love with. He believes that the ego should be included and not vilified in the spiritual quest/journey. And I believe that the ego's evolution requires it to be annihilated. Why? Well, because the ego determines the world and interprets it as it sees it from the standpoint of itself, the ego as the center of the world, nay even universe. It is, after all, the human condition and many people reading this would claim that I was out of my mind. Well, on the one hand that is true, I am out-of-mind when I observe this, but I am not crazy. The mind creates the world, if you doubt that, ask yourself if you exist, ask any well revered guru or wiseman, the world arises upon the nanosecond that we apperceive ourselves. Most people may not even know what the hell I am talking about, there have been accounts of holy men, cave meditators who left society, culture and the ‘world’ to remove themselves from the chaos of the hypnosis of the collective consensus to ‘realize’. Realize what? The end of personal self. But, baby, you can’t force it, it happens naturally without any effort on your part. So in the meantime, live your life, have your story and drama and it all works out because “what is” is the only reality. And, get this, you are the Absolute Reality. To be continued...